Something inside my heart has been awoken for the first time. Something in me that I was unaware of. Recently, our pastor presented the question, “Is Jesus enough?” Of course that question is rhetorical. And I know the answer is yes. My brain answered immediately.
But I was surprised at the sting my heart felt from that question. Very surprised. During the next couple of weeks, my husband & I realized that the same question has repeatedly shown up from different sources. It is now a theme. And we got the hint.
I know that Jesus is enough. But can I be completely transparent with you? I don’t know if I live like I do. In some areas of my life I do. Usually the areas that are easier to give up control in, if I’m honest with myself. But when I press deeply into that question, in it’s very core & rawness, I don’t know if I have believed it.
Is Jesus enough …as long as my husband has a good job?
Is Jesus enough …as long as I have a big house?
Is Jesus enough …as long as I can lose the baby weight I put on?
Is Jesus enough …as long as I can be in control?
Is Jesus enough …as long as I don’t hurt in life?
Is Jesus enough …as long as my emotions feel it?
Is Jesus enough …as long as life goes the way I plan it?
Or is Jesus enough …PERIOD.
Oh I desperately want Him to be. I want Him to be all that I crave, love & know. He IS enough whether I believe it or not. But how would my life change if I really believed it & lived it? How would my relationships, words, life, heart & world be transformed? What would it look like if I stopped dancing in the gray area & just jumped into what I know to be right, true, honest, pure? What if.
No more what ifs.
Jesus, You are enough. Your sufficiency is not dictated by circumstance, emotion or what I can understand. Despite what I face. Despite when I hurt. You are enough. I believe that You will walk with me on this journey of chasing after Your heart. You do not ask me to be perfectly clean & have my life all put together nicely before I approach You. You are just asking me to trust You right now, with my mess & all. You love me unconditionally. You ask me to give You control. You are good. You know me better than I will ever know myself. So I trust You. And although there will be days where I feel weak, overwhelmed & hesitant, I know those emotions do not separate me from You. You are there & You remain enough.
“Blessed are those who have learned to acclaim you, who walk in the light of your presence, O LORD. They rejoice in your name all day long; they exult in your righteousness. For you are their glory & strength” ~Psalm 89:15-17~
JESUS, YOU ARE ENOUGH.
I love you, friends. I declare my God as faithful…& enough.