Right Now

I am on my knees. Lifting my eyes up to the One who created me. Desperately in need of & overwhelming thankful for the grace & love He is pouring over me. Like the refreshment that cool water brings to a weary traveler, I too am looking upwards as heaven rains on me. Wounds are being cleaned out & starting to heal. It’s a healing I have never known. The truth of God’s word is finding new places in my heart to consume… parts of my heart that were previously closed off.
Are you in a place right now that feels deathly dry? Or maybe you feel a thousand miles away from anyone even when you’re standing in a crowd of people. Maybe the messiness in your life has caused you to step away from loving, growing or accepting yourself & others. Don’t wait until you feel like you have cleaned up your heart & life enough to approach the throne of God. That time will never come. Don’t wait until you can muster up the energy on your own to be able to “handle” the things you know need attention. It won’t happen. He wants you exactly as you are, at this exact moment. Healing & renewal can come from no one else except Jesus. It can come from nothing else except for His endless love.
Endless love. It does not run out. Ever. No matter what you say or do. It does not stop. He is just as passionate about you on your good days as He is for you on the days you feel less-than. Your mess, your desires, your baggage, your pain, your anger, your anxiety, your imperfections, your regrets; they are grains of sand compared to the ocean of love & grace Jesus has for you.
 

“Understand, therefore, that the Lord your God is indeed God. He is the faithful God who keeps his covenant for a thousand generations and lavishes his unfailing love on those who love him and obey his commands.” Deuteronomy 7:9

No matter what you’re facing this week, Jesus is there. He is already there. He is the there with you in the pain. And is there in the healing. He is there in your unknowns. They are not unknowns to Him. He is there, my beautiful sister.
 
You are worth it. You are beautiful. I declare my God as faithful.

Is Jesus Enough

Something inside my heart has been awoken for the first time. Something in me that I was unaware of. Recently, our pastor presented the question, “Is Jesus enough?” Of course that question is rhetorical. And I know the answer is yes.  My brain answered immediately.
But I was surprised at the sting my heart felt from that question. Very surprised. During the next couple of weeks, my husband & I realized that the same question has repeatedly shown up from different sources. It is now a theme. And we got the hint.
I know that Jesus is enough. But can I be completely transparent with you? I don’t know if I live like I do. In some areas of my life I do. Usually the areas that are easier to give up control in, if I’m honest with myself. But when I press deeply into that question, in it’s very core & rawness, I don’t know if I have believed it.
Is Jesus enough …as long as my husband has a good job?
Is Jesus enough …as long as I have a big house?
Is Jesus enough …as long as I can lose the baby weight I put on?
Is Jesus enough …as long as I can be in control?
Is Jesus enough …as long as I don’t hurt in life?
Is Jesus enough …as long as my emotions feel it?
Is Jesus enough …as long as life goes the way I plan it?
Or is Jesus enough …PERIOD.
Oh I desperately want Him to be. I want Him to be all that I crave, love & know. He IS enough whether I believe it or not. But how would my life change if I really believed it & lived it? How would my relationships, words, life, heart & world be transformed? What would it look like if I stopped dancing in the gray area & just jumped into what I know to be right, true, honest, pure? What if.
No more what ifs.
Jesus, You are enough. Your sufficiency is not dictated by circumstance, emotion or what I can understand. Despite what I face. Despite when I hurt. You are enough. I believe that You will walk with me on this journey of chasing after Your heart. You do not ask me to be perfectly clean & have my life all put together nicely before I approach You. You are just asking me to trust You right now, with my mess & all. You love me unconditionally. You ask me to give You control. You are good. You know me better than I will ever know myself. So I trust You. And although there will be days where I feel weak, overwhelmed & hesitant, I know those emotions do not separate me from You. You are there & You remain enough.
 
“Blessed are those who have learned to acclaim you, who walk in the light of your presence, O LORD. They rejoice in your name all day long; they exult in your righteousness. For you are their glory & strength” ~Psalm 89:15-17~
JESUS, YOU ARE ENOUGH.
I love you, friends. I declare my God as faithful…& enough